continue move on~

After had happy moment with all frenzs in titiwangsa ...
is time get back to reality --> study, study n study oso...
Suyi, muz study hard, study smart n play hard...

期待

由于是最后一个学期，便决定在星期六来一个野餐。
等了一个星期，这一刻终于来临了。。。
从来都不曾有过这样的期待。。。
有着一种的期待也蛮不错！^o^

Grandmom~~

Grandmother, u muz faster recover frm illness....
because i love u...
because all u grandchildrens love u so much...
dun make us sad...

U like a "big" children... dun wan stay at hospital for the treatment...
tht time, i was like so sad n nervous till wan cried out cos u dun wan for the treatment....
until nw i still cant accepted ...
every time when i was thinking bout u...
ur pale face, u hand without any redness due to anaemia....
make heartache....
dis is not the main thing...
the main thing is ...i worried bout complication of ur stomach cancer....
which was bleeding, in other words, internal bleeding....
dis ll happened in sudden, nobody can expect when ll happen,
nobody knw whether bleeding ll happened o nt...
once happened, i scare grandmother ll collapse...
dis is wat i was worried...

"Dear Lord, i knw u are the one who control everything in dis world...
pls heal my grandmother...as well as me... let me prepared accepted everything u been plan, no matter is good or bad....let me b strong enough to face every single moments..."

蚌的胸襟包容逆境

meaningful article...pls read dis...

我在美讀書時，我的室友是日本人，她們家世代採珠，

她有一顆珍珠是她母親在她離開日本赴美求學時給她的。

在她離家前，她母親鄭重的把她叫到一旁，給她這顆珍珠，

告訴她說：「當女工把沙子放進蚌的殼內時，蚌覺得非常的不舒服，

但是又無力把沙子吐出去，所以蚌面臨兩個選擇，一是抱怨，

讓自己的日子很不好過，另一個是想辦法把這粒沙子同化，

使它跟自己和平共處。於是蚌開始把它的精力營養分一部分去把沙子包起來。

當沙子裹上蚌的外衣時，蚌就覺得它是自己的一部分，

不再是異物了。沙子裹上的蚌成分越多，蚌越把它當作自己，

就越能心平氣和地和沙子相處。」

蚌並沒有大腦，它是無脊椎動物，在演化的層次上很低，

但是連一個沒有大腦的低等動物都知道要想辦法去適應一個自己無法改變的環境，!

把一個令自己不愉快的異己，轉變為可以忍受的自己的一部分，

人的智慧怎麼會連蚌都不如呢？

珍珠的故事我聽過很多，但是很少是從蚌的觀點來看逆境的。

人生總有很多不如意的事，如何包容它，把它同化，納入自己體系，

使自己日子可以過下去，恐怕是現代人最需要學的一件事。



尼布爾（ReinholdNeibuhr）有一句有名的祈禱詞說：「上帝，

請賜給我們胸襟和雅量，讓我們平心靜氣地去接受不可改變的事情；

請賜給我們勇氣，去改變可以改變的事情；請賜給我們智慧，

去區分什麼是可以改變的，什麼是不可以改變的。」



我們憑什麼一有挫折便怨天尤人，跟自己過不去呢？打牌時，

拿到什麼牌不重要，如何把手中的牌打好才是最重要的。

凡事固然要講求操之在己，但是在沒有主控權的事上，

是否也應該學習蚌，使自己的日子好過一些呢？

珍惜时间。。

jz a short story tht i read frm somewhere, wanna share v u all:-
wish u all enjoyed it,...
BUt, pls think bout message wanna tell everyone....

他是個愛家的男人。

他縱容她婚後仍保有著一份自己喜愛的工作，

他縱容她週末約同事回家打通宵的麻將，

他縱容她擁有不下廚的壞習慣，

他縱容她在半夜挑逗那已沉睡的身軀，

他始終都扮演著一個好男人的典範，

他好得讓她這個做妻子的自形慚愧。

她第一次懷疑他，是從一把鑰匙開始。

雖然她不是個一百分的好老婆，

但總能從他的一舉一動了解他的情緒，從一個眼神了解他的心境。

他原有四把鑰匙，樓下大門、家裡的兩扇門以及辦公室等四把，

不知從何時起他口袋裡多了一把鑰匙，她曾試探過他，

他支支吾吾閃爍不定的言詞，令她更加的懷疑這把鑰匙的用途。

她開始有意無意的電話追蹤，偶爾出現在他辦公室，

名為接他下班實為突擊檢查，她開始將工作擺在第二位，

週末也不再約同事回家打牌，還買了一堆烹飪的錄影帶和食譜，

想專心的做個?n老婆，可是一切似乎太遲了。

他愈來愈沉默，愈來愈不讓她懂他心裡想什麼，

常常獨自一個人在半夜醒來，坐在陽台上吹了整夜的風，

他變得不大說話，精神有點恍惚，

有一次居然連公事包都沒帶就上班，

他真的變了很多，唯一沒有變的是他對她的溫柔和體諒，

但她的猜疑始終沒有稍減。

在日以繼夜的追查下，她終於發現那把鑰匙的用途，

是用來開啟銀行保險箱的，於是她決定追查到底，

她悄悄的偷出了那把鑰匙進了銀行。

當鑰匙一寸一寸的在她慌張又迫於知道答案的眼底，謎題即將揭曉。

首先胦入眼簾的一個珠寶盒，她深深的吸了一口氣，

緩緩的打開盒蓋，然後，心裡甜甜的笑了起來：「這個傻瓜。」

那是他們兩人第一次合照的相片。

照片之後是一疊情書，算一算一共二十八封，

全是她在熱戀時期寫給他的，這個時候甜蜜是她臉上唯一的表情。

珠寶盒底下?
O一些有價證券，有價證券底下是份遺囑，她心想：

待會兒出去一定要罵一罵他，才三十出頭立什麼遺囑。」

雖然如此，她還是很在意那份遺囑的內容。

她翻開封面，內容寫著.....

陽明山的別墅和存款的百分之二十留給父母，

存款的百分之十給大哥，有價證券的百分之三十捐給老人機構，

其餘所有的動產、不動產都寫著一個名字。

她哭了，因為這個名字不是別人，正是她自己。

所有的疑慮都煙消雲散，他是愛她的，而且如忠誠。

正當她收拾起所有怠動準備回家為他籌豐晚宴時，

突然，一個信封從兩疊有價證券裡掉下來，

那已經褪去的猜疑，又復萌了，她迅速的抽出信封裡的那張紙，

而診斷欄是四個比刀還利的字.....「骨癌中期」。

每個人心裡都有一把鑰匙，

那鑰匙的名字叫「懷疑」

如果每個人都能知道自己什麼時候會離開自己所愛的人那就好了，

那麼世界上?K不會有那麼多的遺撼.......

就是因為我們都不知道自己會何時離開，

所以，請對自己所愛的人好一些，把每天當成最後一天，

那麼你便不會浪費任何可以疼愛他的機會，

直到有一天我們真的要離別了，自己才不會有遺撼......

所以，愛他請好好待他，

不要讓猜疑分化了彼此的愛，

不要讓猜疑浪費了彼此愛的時間......

不要忘了時間是有限的......

Amazing!!

Half year ago, a gal was heart broken, almost cried everyday, cant concentrate in her studies, even take loss appetite as a reason not to had her lunch or dinner (her frenzs were worried cos b4 dis she was a person who like to eat, even can eat quite lots amount)... she knw she cant continue like dis, cos her frenzs were worried bout her, as well as she gonna faced her final exam which was important to her, then she prayed....

"Dear Father in Heaven, i was suffering nw..can u take away my pain? can u heal my pain which was in my heart?" --jz a short pray, after prayed she didn questioning why dis was happened already, wat she wanna was get better frm nw, even recover frm dis painful heart broken....

God started His work on dis little gal..

Days by days, God was healing dis little gal slowly...

He prepared such good, nice sister in Christ for her who had same experience with her.. her frenz knw her feeling, her frenz accompany her when she wanna cried, comfort her when she was cried, give her advise to her, listen to her when she wanna said sth...because of this, two of them become more closer.....

Sooner or later, she started had her appetite to had lunch or dinner with frenz, able concentrate in her studies...and she pass as well in her final exam although not a high grade... but she still thankful to God.. cos God let her experience all this pain, hold her hand throughout the healing process through prepared such good frenz for her, never dump her alone,....

Till nw although she still duno hv 100%confident whether she can let go for the incident or nt, but she sure she getting better than half year ago, even felt more growth mentally, when she met those ppl who had same experience as wat she experience, she willing share her testimonial with them, how God healing her frm broken heart, how God bring "real" person back to dis world, how God let her stand up again .. when she recalled back the days she experience the pain, she cant imagine how she can survive at tht time...wat she can said was only amazing grace of God can do such miracle, God lead her come out frm the sadness step by step...

God is AMAZING!!!

u r the special 1

Esther 2gether v J

Black pepper spaghetti tht was order by J, (comment -->no to eat this again next time, no need comment so much ya, knw wat mean lo)

food tht order by esther, duno wat to call dis ..haha

cream sup &罗宋汤 --> J's favorite sup

Surprise???!!
surprise got a birthday cake??? happy with bday song tht i sang to u??
(But, how come u thought i was went to toilet make a "cake"??thousand of question marks appear in my head ....)

Make a Wish..haha

was cutting her 's Birthday cake

(muz always happy ya!!!)

Location: Kimgary restaurant, sunway pyramid
Time: 2pm, 7/3/07
Table: 64
Event: hving lunch v Esther (actually the purpose was celebrate Esther's bday)

Esther--> my bestfrenz, i knw her when i was in sunday schl, then become more closer when we were in the same class during secondary schl...Thanks God, give me such nice frenz to me!! everytime when i was in trouble, she ll the one beside me... comfort me, encourage me... one more thing tht i wanna questioning long time ago ...i duno whether i was the person who talkative or you are the one, y always i can talked a lots and non-stop when i was met u ah? anyway, i felt happy can chat v u nia...

Wish you have a wonderful birthday nia....
(wish u was happy to wat i was done for u, jz wanna make u happy ..)

latest way spreading HIV

Berikut adalah artikel yang perlu diambil perhatian sekiranya anda belum membacanya... Sila baca artikel berikut mengenai orang yang HIV positif seronok menyebarkan virus HIV. Ianya pernah ke udara di dalam Televisyen Thai di mana pesakit HIV ditangkap didakwa, tapi apa gunanya, beliau telah merosakkan ramai orang awam yang tak berdosa. Jadi sila berhati-hati... Beberapa tempat berbahaya dan kebarangkalian menemui jarum penyuntik yang telah digunakan penagih :-

1. Di kawasan pantai. Apabila anda berjalan di pantai sila pakai selipar atau kasut, ada penagih dadah yang melakukan aktiviti di tepi pantai danmenimbus jarum penyuntik di dalam pasir. Penyuntik ini kemudiannya terdedah akibat ombak.

2. Di kawasan permainan kanak-kanak. Satu lagi kawasan pilihan penagih.Terdapat kes di Australia di mana kanak-kanak yg tak berdosa telah tercucuk jarum penyuntik apabila beliau turun daripada papan lunsur kemudiannya didapati HIV positif.

3. Di panggung wayang. Sila pastikan kerusi yg anda duduki. Kes yang terjadi apabila seorang perempuan duduk di kerusi beliau dan terasa sesuatu benda mencucuk. Beliau berdiri dan mendapati ada penyuntik dan nota berbunyi "Welcome to the real world, you are now HIV positive'. Doktor telah memeriksa jarum tersebut mengesahkan ianya terdapat virus HIV. Ianya berlaku di Hawai jadi berhati-hati... .

4. Di Georgia. Florida , ada kes menunjukkan pesakit HIV meletakkan penyuntik di dalam tempat mengembalikan syiling, mesin air minuman... jadi pastikan bila anda membeli air atau kandi, perhatikan betul-betul tempat mengembalikan wang syiling... .mungkin terdapat jarum penyuntik di dalamnya.

5. Di restoran Burger King, pesakit HIV yang juga pekerjanya meletakkan sedikit darah di dalam burger mencampurkan dengan mayonis dan salad. Ianya seperti sos. Jadi cuba jangan pesan burger dengan mayonis sos Order di tempat lain.

Wrote by :Dr Yasmin Anum Mohd Yusof (Associate Professor Head Dept. of Chemical Pathology)

After read this article, really feel upset and disappointed... y those drug addicts need to do such cruel things to innocent ppl especially for the kids.... u had HIV in your body, dis happen because you taken drug, u take the risk and you had to pay for it, but y??i dun understand y u all need to do such things cause other ppl sad and disappointed?? are you feel happy when u c other ppl also suffering as wat you suffer? or are you feel lonely since you had dis disease, due to everybody was ignore you and dun wan b frenz with you, therefore, u wan other ppl get this disease and knw tht kind of suffering tht you experience? pls la, y so self-fish?do u all think about feeling of the person when they knw they are HIV positive? do u all knw the sadness of infected person's family when they knw their lovely family member get this disease tht cant cure nowadays and ll leave them one day? those innocent ppl, they didn do such bad things to u all rite? 为什么用别人的伤心来换取你的快乐呢？y use so cruel method cause a happy family gone? y u all take away happiness tht belong to other ppl? y u all wanna give sadness to other ppl?

1st week for my uni life

1st time i was experience this kind of feeling --> 迷茫，无助，压力，担心。dis week lots of things were happened, 1st had argument v my mother make me upset, my summer result make me worried then followed by need to make some decision tht related to my future, make me felt helpless, stressed and worried. This also the 1st time tht i cant sleep well due to all this kind feeling in me... at tht time, i was searching someone help me...eventually, only God who r the one helping me lots....

I would like give thanks to God, because HIM point out my mistake through wat my frenz asked me, let me c tht wat in my mind was totally wrong and correct my thought, as well as He prepared everything tht i need, prepared persons tht i need appear in my eye, beside me, give me suggestion, help me c my direction, remind me not to complicated my problems.. and so on...

Over here, --> ThaNks You, my Frenzs!! Love you all always~~

婚礼

高高廋廋他--〉智强终于决定结束七年半的爱情长跑,和他的女朋友结婚。得知他要结婚真的万分的替他高兴。能见证他的婚礼是我的荣幸。 我和他能认识对方是因为神的安排,在2001年，他和其他的弟兄姐妹来到立卑做宣教的工作因之我有机会认识到他，微微，明华，诗慧和其他的弟兄姐妹。从2001到现在整整6年没见到他了，可是很意外的他竟然还记得我，还认得我。。

大约8点，我参加晚宴。他与晓慧的晚宴是我so far见过最特别的晚宴。他们跳了一只交际舞作为晚宴的开场白，所有的焦点都放在他们俩的身上，静静的欣赏这对新人在台前跳只舞。当然他们也有为我们揭晓到底他们是如何地认识，从相知到相许，以及他们的点点滴滴。最让我深刻印象的是智强在台上大胆的为他的太太表白他有何等的爱她，他以“光良”的歌曲--〉第一次，约定和童话对她说名他的爱，他的太太感动的掉泪，我觉得好笑的是智强所说的一句话--〉虽然歌唱不好，歌也弹不好，样子也长不英俊，还好有老婆爱。 同时，我也有机会“请教明华”， 问问他和微微结婚后的心得，他以四个字来说明一切，那就是“酸，甜，苦，辣”。 他说他与微微是一起的学习经历人生的酸甜苦辣，一起的从中的成长，学习包容与忍耐，真得很有意思。

我很喜欢有一句话，婚烟不是结束一个旅途而是开始另一个的旅途，两个人来自不同的地方家庭背景要相处在一起的确不是一件容易的事情，但有了上帝在伴侣之间，相信一定会有美满的婚烟的。

智强，晓慧。。 你们要幸福哦！！ 我会一致的祝福你们的，为你们祷告的。。